Sitting here and writing blogs about different things I've seen and experienced within the past week opens up my eyes so much. I realize that many of us go through much more than we even have time to think about because we live such busy lives these days. If you truly take a look at film, it involves all of these different scenarios.
One of my posts this week was about how I am so caught up and busy with school this semester. I talked about in that post how I have been in school for a good amount of time now and have just recently discovered my passion. One of my favorite movies of all time is The Pursuit of Happyness. When I watch this movie, it reminds me of myself in so many ways. I have been pursuing many different things in my life but never found anything that I've had to fight for and work my hardest at. Finally, this past year I have found something to chase after and pursue with a passion.
Many movies, whether they're based on true stories or not can definitely inspire us or give us a picture of our own personal lives. Films like Slumdog Millionaire and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button are both not true stories but inspired the world in so many fantastic ways. Both of these films include struggles, love stories, and victories that the characters experience and many of us can relate to those things.
My blogs, this week, felt a little more personal and I feel that I could definitely take nearly all of them and create a movie out of them. I went through time of frustration with my friends, difficulties with love interests, and a new time with me and my mom. Many of these experiences that I've been going through have brought up obstacles and made me ask myself different questions from time to time about my life. Then, many times when I go through this phase, I put in movies that reflect determination, focus, and discipline and I get over the excuses that I make for myself.
Film is so much more powerful than people even realize. We don't just watch movies to entertain ourselves but we watch them for more personal reasons too. I know that when I watch movies for inspiration or even entertainment, it is a time that I can completely clear my mind and get away from the real world. Sometimes, this is exactly what many of us need to relax and reassure ourselves that things aren't so bad. Films have a great ability to help us through different times while we live real life movies of our own.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Mama
My mom and I have been through everything together. We have experienced so many things throughout my 24 for years of life and I appreciate her so much for all that she has taught me. When I was born, my father was a very abusive husband and father. My mom and I were beat and yelled at constantly by my dad and we ran away from home nearly 15 or more times. I won't get into the details but we lived a very fearful life until I was about ten years old. My mom finally couldn't deal with it any longer, gained some courage and left my father for good.
It's typical in Asian families for the children to stay home with their parents until they are married and the life that my mom and I have been throughout has given us even more reason to stick together all this time. My mom has had a rough life and has never truly experienced love and appreciation from a man. Recently, she finally met someone that treats her like a queen and genuinely shows that he cares. He lives in Indiana though and I believe that not too long from now, she will end up moving to be with him.
My mom has always been by my side my entire life and I know she is so afraid to leave me to live my own life by myself here in Michigan with no family and a small group of best friends. I am definitely ready to be on my own and let my mom go off to pursue a life of happiness because she deserves it more than anyone I know. It will be an enormous change for the both of us but I feel like it is necessary and will only spark and exciting new time for me and her.
College
I have been working my butt off this semester and it has definitely taken its toll on me. I have been at Wayne State for six years now and I feel like because I dragged myself through school for this long, I've lost a little bit of my ability to focus and push myself with homework and studying. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy some of my classes but I think I overloaded myself this semester with 17 credits. I know plenty of people take that many or more sometimes but I don't think I should have made myself one of them this semester.
I have about a year or so left and I just need to get myself through it the best I can so I can breathe. For years, I couldn't figure out a major that I knew I'd be passionate about. I was pursuing security instead of passion. Finally, last year, I decided to go after something that I knew I had loved for years and that was my interest in film. Taking film classes for the past year has been so much fun and I feel more motivated to do the work that I need to do. But, there have definitely been some road blocks in the way still and I need to get through them. Most of these are personal mental obstacles I need to beat and force myself to keep the end in mind. One of my favorite quotes by Einstein sums up where I was to where I am now,
"The significant problems we face cannot be solved at the same level of thinking
we were at when we created them."
I have about a year or so left and I just need to get myself through it the best I can so I can breathe. For years, I couldn't figure out a major that I knew I'd be passionate about. I was pursuing security instead of passion. Finally, last year, I decided to go after something that I knew I had loved for years and that was my interest in film. Taking film classes for the past year has been so much fun and I feel more motivated to do the work that I need to do. But, there have definitely been some road blocks in the way still and I need to get through them. Most of these are personal mental obstacles I need to beat and force myself to keep the end in mind. One of my favorite quotes by Einstein sums up where I was to where I am now,
"The significant problems we face cannot be solved at the same level of thinking
we were at when we created them."
In The Beginning...
When you meet someone and feel like you could possibly have some chemistry with them, it's a wonderful feeling. I have been single for about nine months now and I haven't met someone that I have felt is worth pursuing since then. The last few months, some old friends of mine and I have been hanging out a lot more and I began to get to know one of them more than I have ever before. She is a very motivated girl that doesn't have to fit in like all other girls and knows what she wants out of life. I find it difficult to find a girl like that these days and that definitely caught my interest.
Friends began to tease us about the possibility of something happening and I was hoping to get to know her some more too. After one night of all of us going out, I didn't want to rush things or come on too strong so I made sure I was careful about what I might say or do. I sent her a text message one day just saying hello and to have a great day at work. Then, a few days later I invited her to come study with me and some of our friends. I didn't want to get too personal with her until I felt like I knew her well enough. Well, a friend of hers ended up telling me that she felt so pressured by me and that I was constantly trying to get a hold of her. I couldn't believe this! I hadn't done anything yet!
After all of this, it made it clear to me that this girl was definitely not the girl for me and I was very happy that I didn't try to hard to go after a girl that seems to be THAT anti-social. I'm sure that we'll still hang out with our friends together and everything but I will definitely not show any desire for anything beyond friendship for sure.
Friends began to tease us about the possibility of something happening and I was hoping to get to know her some more too. After one night of all of us going out, I didn't want to rush things or come on too strong so I made sure I was careful about what I might say or do. I sent her a text message one day just saying hello and to have a great day at work. Then, a few days later I invited her to come study with me and some of our friends. I didn't want to get too personal with her until I felt like I knew her well enough. Well, a friend of hers ended up telling me that she felt so pressured by me and that I was constantly trying to get a hold of her. I couldn't believe this! I hadn't done anything yet!
After all of this, it made it clear to me that this girl was definitely not the girl for me and I was very happy that I didn't try to hard to go after a girl that seems to be THAT anti-social. I'm sure that we'll still hang out with our friends together and everything but I will definitely not show any desire for anything beyond friendship for sure.
My Best Friend's Girl
I did a blog before about my friend and his girlfriend. In that blog I talked about how his girlfriend could be really materialistic and a huge conflict came up this past week because of it. This girl is one of the first girls that my best friend has dated that I've actually grown to be close to but she definitely pushed my buttons this week. My best friend called me up and told me that they were arguing about Christmas presents and how he believes jewelry should be saved for later on in the relationship like a long-term anniversary or something. I completely agreed with him on that but his girlfriend didn't quite get it.
She actually ended up coming to me as well and we discussed this whole topic. She explained to me that it didn't seem like he cared as much about her because he bought his other girlfriends jewelry before for presents. I explained to her that he didn't want to do that this time because he wanted to save it for a big occasion for them. He didn't want to just buy her jewelry because he thought it was a nice gesture but instead, he'd rather get it for her when they're celebrating a more serious event like an anniversary. She wouldn't see it this way and kept fighting me on it. There was a lot of discussion and then I ended up telling her that if she's that materialistic that they don't belong together and I can't associate with someone that selfish.
After a few days of not talking, she admitted that she was being self-centered and didn't want to see it from the other perspective. I really appreciated her honesty and I apologized for maybe being a little too harsh on her as well. As frustrating as this conflict was, I'm glad that it happened because I believe that my friends and I all understand each other much better and appreciate each others' honesty more as well.
She actually ended up coming to me as well and we discussed this whole topic. She explained to me that it didn't seem like he cared as much about her because he bought his other girlfriends jewelry before for presents. I explained to her that he didn't want to do that this time because he wanted to save it for a big occasion for them. He didn't want to just buy her jewelry because he thought it was a nice gesture but instead, he'd rather get it for her when they're celebrating a more serious event like an anniversary. She wouldn't see it this way and kept fighting me on it. There was a lot of discussion and then I ended up telling her that if she's that materialistic that they don't belong together and I can't associate with someone that selfish.
After a few days of not talking, she admitted that she was being self-centered and didn't want to see it from the other perspective. I really appreciated her honesty and I apologized for maybe being a little too harsh on her as well. As frustrating as this conflict was, I'm glad that it happened because I believe that my friends and I all understand each other much better and appreciate each others' honesty more as well.
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